TUESDAY and Coming Out of the Darkness

OUR MEGAN...

This past weekend Portland, OR was showing their support for the Burmese people. She took part in a rally. It's a shame there was nothing here, or within a large radius of Morgantown, where folks could express their dismay for the horrors occurring far East. For Megan, the dreadful news coming out of Burma hits very close to home. She'd rather nothing more then be back in Mae Sot, as she's well aware the workload has increased considerably, assisting at the Safe House.

As you may recall, Megan has been working part time at the Apple Store. Well, she's now going full time. This is something unheard of at Apple where new employees generally have to wait months and months to be bumped up to full time. Go Mega!

COMING OUT OF THE DARK

The sun is shining and there's a chance summer may finally be drawing to an end, if the colors of the trees are an indicator. THANK GOD! I'm very much looking forward to cool crisp days, brightly colored trees, and the cold evenings of autumn.

Haven't got very far in resolving issues from previous posting, but am wittling away at them. Sad news is, as much as I loathe the Effexor, I'm back on it for the time being. It seems my brain (neuro transmittors, funky chemicals, hormones, etc) simply cannot cope with more then a million stressors at once! Drat! It has become painfully obvious I could no longer dwell in the land of unhappiness and neuro-crossfiring. Because I've been unable to get the multiplicity of thoughts and corresponding emotions sorted out, I'm sure things were getting quite uncomfortable for those around me, finding themselves at a loss for how to help. Oh the joys of living with a chemical imbalance!

You'll be glad to know that I'm slowly but surely returning to level ground where one learns to accept the challenges life affords them. My apologies to anyone who may have taken my ramblings "personally". It might serve you well to learn along with me, that out of every challenge comes the possiblity of something more grand, often unexpected, and an opportunity for growth.

So, with each day ahead I'll (try my best to) look on the prospects for the future with hopeful eyes, realizing that what may seem quite overwhelming and objectionable, pales in comparison to the hopelessness of so many others. In order to maintain a peaceful soul, I must let go of my little list of recent disappointments, hurts, and grief... reminding myself that the ill will, betrayals, and hurt others attempt to place on us are theirs to own. I'm relearning an old lesson in letting go, letting God, and remembering that I am a servant... "be it unto me according to thy word" (Luke 1:38)... who mustn't get so caught up in the mundane oddities of human nature.

Ahhhh, now to putting my money where my mouth is, aye?